"Pain" and "Falling Out"

At the end of my sophomore year in college, I had a falling out with a group of friends because of some things that happened. The first poem here is written about a friend who I saw being hurt. The second was written in response to the falling out.

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Torn, hurt, gasping for life
It hurts so to see you so
Oh my friend, words cannot express
the hurt, like a knife, as if I am
you and you are me

I hate to see you hurt,
I hate to see you wounded,
But my friend, let me help
if I can

But no, it is not my help you need,
it is the help of one greater than me
My friend, turn to Him in time of need,
Turn to Him for sweet melody

Now I see you helped and able,
Or was it my imagination, a fable
Words cannot express my joy at seeing you whole,
No, but try I must

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Here I stand
alone, stripped,
naked, mocked,
reviled, why?

Here I stand
left alone,
defenseless
against the
attacks of
others

Here I stand
friendships
ruined and no
more, why?

Here I stand
at the crossroads
right or left
up or down
I look around
and see no one

What to do,
What to say,
Things need
to be said,
but how,
but why

Oh my friends
I never meant
to cause pain
never meant
to cause anger
but I have but
it was meant
for good turned
bad and evil
help, help, help